Changing Direction

Out of all the years since I can remember, this one has had the most significance. There have been numerous lifestyle changes and such in my first 20 years living, however, this one seems to be above the rest. I remember back in high school, my ignorant self, wanted some big change to occur. I didn’t specify what, and later on, realized I had no idea what I was getting myself into. Thoughts usually become a realization sooner or later. That, I can attest to.

That big change was a family move to New Hampshire. Looking back on it, I couldn’t have been more thankful for it. During though, that’s a story that doesn’t need explaining just yet. In short, it was the kick in the ass I needed to figure out what life is really like in the so-called “real world”. I’ve come to the conclusion that adult life is very similar to high school. We’re still immature and oblivious not knowing what to do or where to go. There may be a select few that say they do, but most of the time they’re full of shit, not shinola. Hopefully, you get the reference.

This year was a decision-making year, and still is as a matter of fact. Every day is if you think of it. However, My decisions led me to find out more about myself and what I’m capable of now, and what I can do in the future. That trail does things to you, and from what I experienced and what others say, it’s a blessing all the way through to Canada. Out there in the woods, you have a lot of time to think and decompress. To figure out what works for you and what doesn’t. The unnecessary junk in your brain per se. Every moment you need to adapt while your on that trail. Be flexible, yet confident in your decisions to know what’s best for you. And, that’s the most important part.

When it comes down to it, everyone is selfish in their own way. It’s true, even I am. There’s no shame in it, that’s just how it works most of the time. It’s not something that hasn’t been a mystery to people. People before me have said it countless times, and I think I’m coming up with something fresh. Ha, one day I will though.

Change on the trail or the day to day life you live is trying, even to the most mentally toughest. Change kicks you in the ass and repeatedly stomps on you until you have to deal with it head-on. Like a fist to a brick wall. Eventually, that sucker is gonna break. It shows you most importantly who a puzzle piece of who you really are.  And when you look back on it, like I do so many times to reflect, you appreciate all of it. The pain, the pleasure, all the emotions you deal with in a given situation. Because when it comes down to it, we aren’t all that different.

Every day the sun rises and sets. That’s certain until the day you physically kick the bucket. The weather changes, people change. The change happens because we need it. If not, we’re just stuck and needling our way out of an inescapable maze. I’ve embraced it. Maybe not every day, but I’m learning, and that’s all I can do. Learn whatever I can and change from it.

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